"Then I see a white-topped vial. Wow. I stare at it. It's the first time I've ever seen it. I know I've seen it ten thousand times before. I know it only leads to bad things. I know I've had it and touched it and used it and shaken the last particles of white from the thin deep bottom one thousand times. But there it is. And it's the first time I've ever seen it.". How do you describe an addiction in which the drug of choice creates a hole in your memory, a "white out," so that every time you use it is the first time, new, fascinating, and vivid? This work is an In-depth look into the life and mind of a heroin addict. It is the author's memoir, a telling of his own story that takes us straignt inside such an addiction, what he calls the memory disease.