I wanted to try and write and see if anyone could make any use of my experiences, even to just pass time or think twice or get mad at another individual, (me). I started wanting to write what it was like growing up in a Mormon community, not being Mormon myself. But this book only covers that a bit. Hell, I survived Utah. Since I wrote this book, I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. This book's confusing mess has been edited. I am hoping to put this book out of print. If I have any power in this decision it will, and should be, put out of print, secondary to ignorantly chosen words that may have been offensive. THE F BOMB! I URGE YOU NOT TO BUY THIS BOOK. Since this book I've written many more journal entries & I can't even begin to explain how much I've learned since this book. It is just a book of my perception @ the time. I hope some people forgive me for some of the words in this first edition and that it won't offend. i just wanted to be honest to everyone. in my own measley misspelled words. & let me tell you, I've let go of a LOT of the shit that I wrote in this book. Just by getting it out of my mind down to my fingers onto a QWERTY key pad into a computer program onto a disc and sent the fuck away from me so that I didn't think about it much more. I think it worked well. And when Sacrificing Sanity is done, I can't wait until the lift I'll feel, the weight of what has happened, I look forward to it ascending. Update, it had already ascended. I just needed to realize I had become someone willing to forgive.
Look forward to the second more pc edition coming out. It was sent out to publisher today 11/18/2012. It will be edited this time. Update, I declined paying 2,000 $ to have it edited. Told the publisher to put it into book form ASAP. An epilog, sacrificing sanity, will be in there as well, and addtions to the cuntionary, in Benjamin Perez's forecunt he invited me.