Sixteen-year-old Pea looks normal, but she has a secret: she has Avoidant/Restrictive Food Intake Disorder, which means she can t eat very much because nutritious foods frighten her. Having ARFID is like having a monster inside of her, one that dictates what she can eat, what she does and who she socializes with. This monster is growing and controlling more than just her food issues it s causing anxiety, depression and thoughts that she doesn t want to have. When she falls crazy-mad in love with Ben, she hides her disorder from him, pretending that she s fine. At first, everything really does feel like it s getting better with him around, so she stops taking her anxiety and depression medication. And that's when the monster really takes over her life.